Lift

⏳ Approximate reading time: < 1 min
Figure 1. Lift #23. For the others in the Stay-At-Home Pandemic Bestiary, check out https://www.earthwidemoth.com/blog/gallery/.

I’ve continued to draw, albeit more slowly. More than five hours into this-here, Lift #23, something like a masked, anthropomorphized mandala subjected to the annoyances of serpentine figure. A dragonfly knows to conjure and contain fire. And so: Put more care into each line. Erase and redraw. Get it just right. Wabi sabi, too, though, so do not chase perfectionism. Zoom in. Make junctures that touch.

The world’s exhaust and sparks, it’s a noxious lot right now. Just gonna leave it be that. Pandemic and high amperage outrage because George Floyd should still be alive. Ahmaud Arbery should still be alive. Breonna Taylor should still be alive. Feel that heartache. Anger and outrage. Empathize. Listen. Notice those closest who can use a hand, a place to stay, a dollar, a break. Pass forward what few dollars I can spare into the relief of others’ pain. Sit, dwell on ways of sorting through all the more there is to say, all the more there is to act upon, what it will take to forge ahead. Encourage healing. At your pace. Stay focused and patient-persistent and good.

Flight

⏳ Approximate reading time: 2 mins

At the end of a semester, I’m usually in the mood for a change–something
different. Weeks and months of pacing produce the deep craving for
interruption–a break from duty-rhythm (in itself, a comment on rhythm of
another scale). I am almost there; after tomorrow (the same day I finished with
my q. exams one year ago) I will lay off for a week, ease into some
consequence-light reading, nap, snack, take walks, watch a couple of Netflix
DVDs.

Why not pick up something I wouldn’t read but for the desire for a break?
Okay, I already did this week. I was moping around the office the other night, nearly giving in to boredom, when D. handed me a copy of Sherman Alexie’s
Flight

(cloud)
and said, “Here, read this.” What is it? Juvenile
literature for book club. One hundred and eighty pages; a couple of one-hour
blocks on the couch between 10 p.m. and 11 p.m. Quick read. Good,
too.

Flight is Vonnegutsy through and through, the story of Zits, a pimply,
edgy foster kid whose one-two of violence and defiance keep him bouncing from
one terrible foster home to another. The book speeds Zits on a Billy
Pilgrimage as he comes unstuck in time, drifting on a Ghost Dance in and out of
a series of violent encounters: Custer’s last stand, Gus’s (conflicted)
traitorous revenge, and a couple of others.

"You let him out of his cage?" I ask.
"Well, his wings were clipped."
"A clipped-wing bird ain’t a bird," I say.
"All right, all right, Dr. Earth First, I’m not the one who clipped them.
He was clipped when we bought him. And it wasn’t like we bought him to
be a tiny little Thanksgiving dinner. We loved that bird. I
loved him. My daughter named him Harry Potter."
"That’s cute."
"Damn right, it’s cute. You want to hear the cutest part?"
"Yeah."
"I’m the cook of the family, the domestic, and Harry Potter loved to sit on
my shoulder while I was cooking and insult my food."
"No."
"Yes, my wife and daughter told him to say Too much salt and I’m being
poisoned
and I want pizza instead."
"That’s hilarious."
"Yes, it is. And there’s more. You see, my daughter’s favorite
dish is pasta-anything. So I’m always boiling water. And Harry Potter
is always sitting on my shoulder."
"Oh, shit," I say, already guessing the end of the story. (145-146)

Flight mixes in commentary on cycles of violence, innocence, and
karmic retribution; combines a believably awkward teenage protagonist with his
genuine ‘whatever’s and filthy language (enough that it wouldn’t surprise me to
hear about the language-chastisers complaining it off the shelves of school
libraries). Maybe it’s not quite a Slaughterhouse
Five
of 2007 (the ending is, after all, too nicely buttoned down given the
upheaval of everything before it), but it is close: disturbing, insightful, layered. Close enough that you should
pick up a copy if, like me, you are interested in a break that includes reading
some stuff you wouldn’t have any other opportunity to read.